Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Tribute To Kolej MARA Banting

***This is a very very very long overdue post***

So what's to become of me? Still stuck in the midst of the overwhelming memories of this college.


Yesterday,today and tomorrow. The thought of it never seems to leave my mind. Often I ask myself why is it so hard to really let go of yesterday. And I am yet to find the exact answers but along the way, I recalled too many things that happened to me in the last 2 years and I realized there are just truckloads of memories to be rid of that I just decided to keep it, live with it in the meantime cause it just feels right (where on earth will you get this experience?only in KMB).


I miss waking up really early in the morning. 6.30 am was late for a nerd like me. I woke up usually at 6 am. Rush to the toilet, Subuh, packing up books according to timetable and iTunes on playing mode for Oasis and random songs. I always need to make sure the room is tidied then I'm heading for class at 7 am but sometimes it was really messed up I just grab my bags and off to class. That's my routine. My short stop, it's either the Dewan Selera or Ko-op KMB. I love the sausage roll and the curry puff and the canned drinks, it reminds me of my favorite Mocha, Latte, Kiwi, Peach Lemon. Lovely drinks minus the caffeine-rich  products.


I love to read something before the class kicks off, and things are better understood at this early hour (around 6 am to 7.30 am, I love this period). Well, I can't deny that I myself will keep staring at the clock for the end of the day's lessons. Take a quick lunch and then I'll plan on what to do that afternoon, mostly I'll do all those assignments or I can just simply sleep in my room. Heaven :)

After all that has been my successful journey and I am bound to achieve more in my medical school term. But every tiny bits of experience that I learned back then will serve as a guide for me to not repeating my mistakes.


For another one mark to get an A for my Extended Essay, for another one mark to get 25/25 for my Business and Management Studies Internal Assessment, for another one mark to get 20/20 for my Theory of Knowledge Presentation and for another one point to get the High Achiever Award, I know that this is a sign for me to work a little harder and things will fall right in place.


Farewell KMB, Batch 09/11.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Fly, Baby, Fly

Ini kerje manusia forever alone bile buat post blog back to back dalam mase 1 jam. Baru sekejap tadi dapat duit raya lumayan dari saudara mara. Tu baru satu keluarga dah dapat RM156 tambah yang semalam RM50 (duit raya advance payment).


Baiklah, saye rase semua pun well aware yang student UCD nak berhambus 3/9 ni. Which is including me. Sangat haromm bile ade yang cakap kene beraya sekejap je. You said that to the wrong people, cik kiah. Saye cukup dengan raye sehari. Sehari ni pun saye dah mati kutu nak buat ape sampai dah terpaksa dengar lagu classical dalam iTunes (nampak tak kaitan tu?). So memang tak kesa fly bile. Even hari ni kene berhembat hembatan dengan luggage ke KLIA pun tak ape. Asal kan duit raya masuk, tak gitu?


Untuk preparation nak fly, mesti lah dah beribu riban saye habiskan. Setakat seratus dua tu tak mampu nak puaskan nafsu serakah berbelanja besar. Saye habiskan paling banyak pade stationery (RM230), baju semua kurang RM200 tapi berhelai helai (Read:kurang RM200 times unknown X).


Of all the things I bought, foods saye tak beli. Mungkin nanti beli di KL je. Semua barang bersepah dalam rumah, ade dalam bilik ade luar bilik ade kat rumah kakak. Checklist pun tak buat lagi. Susah bile semua kene handle sendiri tapi seronok sebab pengalaman tu sendiri yang rasa.


Bile dok pikiaq balik, betul betul rase tak sangke, impian dari kecik, dari tadika nak fly oversea akhirnye jadi kenyataan. Syukur alhamdulillah. Cita cita asal nak masuk RCSI nehh, semangat dok tulis RCSI mase nak interview MARA. Sampai je KMB, cita cita tu disimpangkan sikit. I blame the seniors. LOL. 


Saye ni kalau nak cakap lucky, bukan setakat lucky je, dah ber lucky lucky. Bayangkan dari sekolah rendah bawak ke KMB, journey tu alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan. Tak ade yang sangkut. Plus ramai pulak tu senior yang tolong saye. Kalau nak harapkan keluarga saye mereka pun mungkin tak tau care yang terbaik, pertolongan senior2 ni jugak yang banyak mempermudahkan saye dalam banyak hal. Thanks a lot.


Saye tak mintak pun orang hantar saye ke airport tu. Jangan susah susah. Pergi je beraye puas puas. Tapi kalau insist tu, jangan segan segan. Bawak duit raya, tu penting. KLIA ade money changer okay. Take note.


Dalam hustle bustle nak berangkat ni, tersentuh jugak la hati sebab arwah ayah dah tak ade. Tak sempat nak berkongsi kegembiraan dengan arwah. Mase makan pagi tadi, nak menangis dah, selamat dapat tahan plus ade selsema sikit so tak kantol. Selamat selamat. 


Saye ade a very long overdue post pasal KMB, that would be the end post about that awesome college. Will post it later tonight or kejap lagi, biase la, raye orang forever alone memang macam ni. 

My Eid

We have our own way in celebrating a big day, be it birthday or Eid Ul Fitr (Eid). Same goes to me. I tend to go heartless in celebrating important days because for me it's just the same, LIKE.ANY.OTHER.DAY.

Started the day with a routine check on my email inboxes, Facebook and Twitter and also on top of all that, UCD Connect, where I got all the updates on my university registration process. I can't walk outta my room until I do all these. Hopefully a new smartphone would do me a great favor.

My day couldn't get any better without a plate of my mom nasi minyak (oily rice ke in English? LOL). And the day continued without me getting shower. I've told you, it is just a normal day for me. And then I went to my dad's grave and then my day ended. I lead a such boring life. Lifeless is more like it.


I got a pile of clothes and stuffs to be packed in my luggage. I have a mix feeling over going to Ireland to further my study.


Tak tau nak rase ape. Nak rase excited, nervous mencanak. Nak rase happy, teringat pulak entah ape hard times will I face mase dekat UCD nanti. Orang cakap suka suka sangat tanda nak menangis. Motiff... 


Saye rase akan tukar bahasa menulis ke bahasa melayu. Campur campur, rojak petis. Kejap lagi saye post pasal issue nak fly ni.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Best Mirror

This is the sequel to the numbers game on Facebook. But this time, it's not about me writing to them but them writing about me. Well said people, friends are your best mirror. So if one of yours give an honest comment, why not take it? There's no harm of listening to one. So here's what they say about moi!



#9876
Aku tak tau nama penuh budak ni.. dia ni pandai. fokus dengan assignment. suka ajak classmate dia utk bersaing dgn dia dlm menyiapkan kerja. cemerlang dalam IB. dia pernah describe diri dia sbgai seorang yg mmpunyai sifat kiasu. dia nnti pi Ireland. tinggal kat block B. sgt aktif bertwitter. senang je nk teka ni :)

‎#5858
Budak pandai, budak rajin, apa lagi. Muka buku, muka LRC. HAHAHA. He's a nice guy I can say :) kenal dia through one of my friend because they always like belangkas, that's why i kenal this guy. A very hardworking person and I respect him for that. Cayalaaah! HAHAHA. He called me Mak Datin which I don't know why. I personally think he always get what he want because he believe and he works his best to get it. He's going to Ireland soon and I know he will do well there. Good luck kawan :)

‎#1936
dy nih mang aku na sepak2 je!!hahaha da la suke kenekn aku men pingpong tp skali lwn ngan aku mang kene belasah r..ahhaha nseb la mamat nih bek slalu la kalu na borak ptg2..suke ejek dy pasal incident bju zara..mang xley bla dy nih suke jog gak r tp xturun2 gak perot tu..ahhaah
#8375
Kau suke menggelabah! Kelam kabut! Tapi kau rajin. Rajin gile weyh yang amat. Kesian kau kan kene perli rambut dengan gigi kau. HAHAHA. Kau ni bile orang perli kau ke, kutuk kau ke, sikit pun kau tak kisah kenapa haa? Lagi satu, ko kalau nak ape yang ko nak, ko mesti usaha gile2 kan. Sampai kdg2 kite pun annoying dgn ko. haha. sorry :p papepun, goodluck kat dublin! ;)

‎#4993
Tinggi die ni cam model. Mmg sgt rajin dan selalu bantu member kalo ade masalah. Thanks notes yg ko bg. Pernah tido kt blek aku skali je and since ari tu aku dpt merasai aura die yg sgt mendalam. Saorang musician mate yg best. Dia ni kalo wat sesuatu mesti bersungguh-sungguh and tak pernah putus asa. Memang hebat dlm bms and personal statement die mmg ayat stylo lah. Selalu gak kaco die kt blek. Gud luck in ur life after ni sebab aku tau ko leh terus success.

‎#6036
hahahah, hmmm, peramah, bergaya, suka makan, suka puasa, sgt2 menghormati guru, kurang berbudi bahasa, agak moden, agresif dalam kelas, suke dengar lagu, bilik bolehla kemas la jugak, suka satu watak dalam gossip girl(ape tah nama watak tu), suke tgk american idol!!!!, berkawan rapat dengan seorang wanita, hahahah, seseorang yg sesuai utk bersaing dengan zatil, aku tgk xde la rajin sangat budak ni, aku doakan ko dapat isteri yg solehah!!!, enjoy ur life

‎#7351
rajin. tinggi. kacak. bergaya. sape lagi kalo bukan ...don! hehe. dia ni selalu menyibukkk! serious. org tgh gosip kt depan, dye ada je mengintai kat belakang. lol. aku suka duk depan ko. sbb senang tnya soalan chem kt ko. ko kn mantop! nk exam rajin nk mati. ak rasa kt ireland nnt mst almari buku ko lg besa dri katil heee. benci ckp pasal rhsia ko. xpnh nk kasi tau. hii papepun best kwn ngn ko :)

‎#6104
tetibe anta chat kt ak. soh bt bende ni. sorg yg pramah tp 1st impression, mamat yg kerek abes. bjet.tp rupenye, x,worse.LOL. juz kiddin. die seorg yg cool, tp gelabah bile xdpt or in doubt of something yg die curios.(im juz sayin)rajin blaja, slalu jmp kt lrc.tkot ngan ak sbb,igt ak ni cannibal/something like that. mamat ni PANDAI. dpt 41 kot.1st time berknalan ak x igt.sbb, perkenalan xdiduga.mksdnye,tetibe je bleh kenal.akhr skali,die sorg yg bkal jd housemate ak kt oversea.I.Allah.amin

‎#9021
Ok so mule2 kite xde la rapat and all kan tapi yela kadang tu it takes time jugak untuk rapat ke ape kan. Then bile the ice is broken, amboi kemain lah kite ni haa. bergosip bagai x hengat dunia nih!!!! riuh sangat nye haa dengan kau nih! Wish boleh kenal and rapat dgn kau awal2 lagi kan so that banyak moments kite bergeds2 bersama2..tapi xpelah, ape yg ade that'll do already..haha..jgn lupe taw plan kite!!! ITU YANG PENTING!!!! LOL! ^_^

‎#1336
Okay this is a bit embarrassing, but what caught my eyes when i first saw him was his broad chest, rasa macam menariknya badan dia. I WAS A BIT WEIRD BACK THEN. (skrg pun pelik jugak) and also his fingers, he has nice fingers. Nevertheless, it wasn't his outer apperance that caught my heart( for friendship of course), but him, being himself. he is very honest in giving opinion, outspoken, caring, good listener and he is like my big brother. =D

‎#5831
mula2 igtkn ak la yg paling rajin.tp ad lak mamat ni mmg kerajinan die biase cm dlm drama je jumpe.kagum ble die cter psal arwah ayah die =).kalo die nk somthing, mmg btul die cbe dptkn.kdg2 tk pham btul ngn cara die idup kt kmb, tp ap yg die buat tu mm nmpk la hasilnye. die ni mmg mnusia jnis jrg.haa pling best ble ak tye die soalan pe2, die akn cube explain dgn bsgguh2...tq bro

Seriously people? Am I that nerdy? These are their opinions on me. I need to switch off that kiasu mode,  pronto.

Friday, August 19, 2011

The Lucky Number

#2704
BROKEN HEART.She's my gossip girl with another girlfriend.hihi.I can't remember how exactly we talked to each other.It was like we're just close since forever.Die ni all her ranting, I know the right person that she's referring to. A very sweet girl. I like her name. SHE HAS A PRETTY SISTER AND GOOD LOOKING BROTHERS. I guess it's in her gene. So don't worry, you really should move on for someone better. I love reading her love posts or her heartbroken posts. It seems so real and something that I can relate to. Cheerful and very expressive. Can see some part of me reflecting from herself :)


#1234
ILY.Dah almost 10 years kawan.She knows me inside out. She can accept me the way I am. Memang ini ultimate bestfriend. TAK PERNAH EMO. Pernah kot. Sekali. sepanjang panjang  kawan memang tak pernah tau bile die marah. same macam saye. Susah nak marah kot. And taktau nak cakap ape sebab tak payah cakap pape  pun she knows how important she is for the past 7 years hehe :)


No more numbers :)

Random Numbers,Random People

Here's the thing,these people,they gave a number between #0000 to #9999.So, it's only me and them that will know this number.So I am to give my personal thoughts on what I think about them. Below are the descriptions. I post it on my blog because I don't want to spam the Facebook newsfeed.


**PLEASE GIVE ME A DIFFERENT NUMBERS OTHER THAN WHAT I'VE POSTED**







#17
Die ni nak cakap boleh kate tegas.Kadang rase nak sepak kepala die laju laju.Tapi sebenarnye die okay je.Siap share personal stories lagi mase kat  KMB dengan die pasal family. So memang la kalau tak kenal maka tak cinta.Pandai berkata-kata die ni.Ade je keje die nak fire orang.Kiasu, masyaallah taktau nak cakap ape weh. Selalu cakap die ni No.1 tapi the fact is, itu tipu belaka hahaha.Saye tahu siape 10/10 die :)

#133
KACAK BERGAYA.die ni rapat jugak dengan saye.kadang kadang rase macam adik.padahal sebaya.first time tengok,alahai budak ni,bile nak tinggi dik.baik.die ni kalau ade problem kadang kadang die cari saye.tak fussy.mudah je nak berkawan dengan die.so far,tak pernah nampak bad side die sebab mungkin tak pernah work on a project dengan die though ade la yang cakap die ni susah to work with.overall die memang jambu :)

#7777
CIK KIAH.lawak betul.suke borak dengan die sebab care die cakap.selalu bump off dekat kmb,sempat lagi tu nak fire fire satu same lain.drama gak sikit.tapi seronok,sebab boleh buat tergelak.die ni asyik tweet nak bersuami je,tapi die single.ke tak dah?baik.belum pernah lagi borak ape2 personal dengan die.but die ni good company.lighten up ze days :)

#0155
Tau dark secret dia.selalu gak borak.muke mintak pelempang macam saye jugak.tapi bile dah kenal,die ni baik je.tak sombong.main bola saye rase.kecik je badan.bile nak membesar bro?perlu kan mase nak kenal lagi die ni :)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Lost In Thoughts

Semakin dekat hari nak masuk med school,semakin terasa kebangangan diri. Menarik punya hypothesis. And that of course, only apply to me.

So how's that for the intro?

Let's get back to serious matter. Well, it's a yeah 2.15 am 8/18/2011. Yeah  tell me about it, I love writing blogpost at some odd hours. For the past 3 months I apparently have stocked up more fats than I ever could for the past 10 years. And since Ramadhan, things get a little MORE fattening than it is ever before. Wake up, online, breaking fast, online, sleep, sahur, sleep. What a preparation for med school.

Some of my friends, they have started READING the first chapter of medical books. So you tell me my dear friends, siapa yang skema ayam di sini?pfftt. So yeah, screw them. SCREW YOU. Jangan turn on kan my kiasu mode di sini. Masih ada raya aidifitri untuk diraikan.

I am, or I was willing to make a proper post about Futsal KMB and Alma Mater, but I don't know. Staying idle at home has eventually taken its toll on me, making me even lazier day by day.

Anyways, I'd like to make a toast..no..I'd like to thank my seniors for answering all those stupid questions of mine regarding going to Ireland and yeah more specifically going to University College Dublin. They even told me how many undergarments that I should bring to Ireland. This is too nice to be true. Thank you sooo sooo much.

For a grammar nazi and spelling nazi like moi, writing in a mash up of language is so rare and this is one of them. Kill me, some other language nazi! But yeah, tragically, I am a control freak. I want everything to be in my control despite the fact that I have made a promise to myself to let loose of certain things after college, but it seems a bit far from becoming reality. Toodles

Sunday, August 7, 2011

The Happy Endings Where I Begin



Yesterday was a remarkable history indeed. A day overflowed with happiness and excitement, an inexplicable blend of emotions. After all, it was our Graduation Day, we were the celebrated ones and and I was the late one. My auntie took the road to KMB despite the fact that she uttered herself that we were going to PICC, Putrajaya. Overconfidence really kills.
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The robe made me feel like I'm one of the Hogwarts students except that we didn't have the wands with us. The day was perfectly simple. We came in, listen to the speeches, and of course chit-chatting among us the noisy people at the back was inevitable. And then in the performance by the music club. Great job people! Real nice event appropriate for Ramadhan.
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Talked to my English teacher and my TOK teacher, very lovely people. Got a gift from my mentor, Miss Oja cum my English teacher and a card from Puan Mawarzah, my EE advisor, a real perfectionist she is. I just love ze teachers in KMB :) 
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Meeting friends and people that makes your life in surviving IB Diploma at KMB is a real great pleasure. While chatting with my TOK and English teacher, I just realized that my day in KMB is real over, but I believe, the memories, friendships and every tiny bits of beautiful things in it are something that will keep on living with me. It was sad, really. But the sadness was well covered with the feel good vibe winding around in the atmosphere.
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It's true. Something that has a beginning is inextricably subjected to an end. I am satisfied with my journey so far. I learnt a lot, definitely. I do not resent that I wasted most of my teenage life in school and college, having some sort of entertainments with books and more assignments. In the end, I just know that I am preparing myself for a challenging adulthood. And again, though this phase has ended, but I'll keep living in those beautiful memories and keep it as something to look back on every once in a while, because it is indeed a great journey. Have you keep yours?

Speech by Ketua Pengarah MARA

Performance by music club. Good job people!


The girl with green hijab, is UCD-ian also

3 stooges?

Nice muffler from Miss Oja. Thank you!




Family! <3

Miss Sher. Yeap, I will keep writing and sharing :)

Favorite teachers! :)

LOL!

Friday, August 5, 2011

Graduation Day KMB

I wrote this CAS(Creative,Action,Service) reflection last year. The reflection was written for the music club since I was involved with the orchestra performance. Superb experience I'd say. I was involved for my seniors' Graduation Day since Year 1. All I can say is that, the priceless gift that I get during the day is absolutely the motivation that I can absorb from the event and that was among the things that kept me going in surviving International Baccalaureate Diploma at Kolej MARA Banting. Happy reading.


The first time will always be the best, but sometimes a second exposure could just be better. It is my sophomore year in Mara College Banting and here I am, blowing the best through my golden-coated brass-made saxophone during the most anticipated event for Music Club members, seniors’ Graduation Day. The sweats, endless hours of painstaking training and routine, ups and downs, they now had come to an end. It was an ending that worth to be remembered for as long as I can breathe.  I can vividly imagine the prestigious hall of Putrajaya International Convention Center, with the perfectly laid red carpet to welcome the honored guests and most importantly, the International Baccalaureate survivors. And there we are, sitting still, sharp and focused, ready to play the beats of the day jubilantly.
            Getting a second bite of the cherry in my life as a performer to be involved in Graduation Day is just a plain honor. Things would have been so much different if I did not make that bold step in signing up for Music Club a year ago. I learnt so much about life through my active involvements in this club. I believe these added values of life quality that I possessed will distinguish me from the common students. Equality, tolerance, discipline, commitment, these are all those valuable qualities that I managed to inculcate within me to be a better person in the future. Music, does prove to me that it is not just a mere lullaby, it is about life-improvements, it is about friendships, and it is more than just about playing running notes on the score sheets.
            To me, the highlight of my involvement for this year is about the motivation that I absorbed throughout the Graduation Day itself. Looking at the seniors draped in golden dresses and tailored suits, a glimpse of satisfaction reflected in every each one of them. It made me realized that my time will come, soon. The seniors had put their hearts and souls to complete their diploma. What about me? Will I be able to shine as bright as their smiles while holding the diploma on the stage? Will I be able to score 45 points like Wahidah Wahid; a former member of Music Club members? Yes I can. Nothing can stop me from having the same feeling that she had on that day.
            I was so inspired seeing her getting awards that she deserved to have. Until today, Graduation Day succeeded in heating up my motivation. It has become my turning point. I no longer doubt myself that I do have the potential to score beyond average. I am not afraid of setting up my goal at the maximum level. To deserve “I believe in you” from someone else requires me to believe in myself first. No matter how bumpy the road in front of me, I have to keep holding on. Nervous is just a common feeling in an adventure to achieve my goal because I am almost there. I deeply believed that we are the champions in our own lives.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Time Really Flies

I was looking for the right first sentence to start this post. But never mind, cause that could take ages to figure out.


Long hiatus? Yes, absolutely. I just don't know the reason why ever since IB result was announced, my excitement to pursue my oversea degree goes out through the window. And I fail to summon them back, they just disappear into thin air. When my friends are just elated about it, I am in the predicament of finding back that excitement, browsing seniors pictures, chat with them but those are not enough. To say I am nervous to embark on university life as a medical student, that's pretty much the understatement of the year. Maybe, when we lose something, we shouldn't look for it, just let it go. Or should we?


Found the strength to update this blog to really walk the talk. I tweeted last time that I will only write my next post once I am informed about my respective university. And yeah, I got University College Dublin (UCD). Yay for that! Well this calls for some explanation. I once aimed for Trinity College Dublin (TCD) and not UCD. And there's a but to that, it was just my preference. As long as I got Dublin, I am just more than happy. At last, my dreams really came true. Alhamdulillah. I call this as Ramadhan luck.


For the moment, I am so occupied with forms, forms and more forms. It takes a dizzy head to fill all these.


Those are for MARA onlayyy!Not yet uni!




This one cost me 226MYR
All I can say is, going overseas not as easy as it looks and you need to fork out some of you OWN money to pay for apartment deposits and etc. But since this is what I want, nothing seems to be that hard to be done.

The long hiatus, I was constantly thinking. What is it to become of me? Will life be easier, or will it turn into some ferocious battle where I am the handicapped fighter? What's life version would you want? Have you find yours?